Hi peeps!

one more week to go back to Dior!

one more day to payday!

yay!

Well, everything went back smoothly I guess? :)

heh heh heh.

Today, Baby sacrificed for me! AwwWwWw~

That was very sweet of him.

Thank you baby. :)

Here comes the story :

Two days ago, I went to meet nic, sam and baby after work @ bottle tree.

Well, baby and sam went out to bus stop to fetch me. Everything was fine.

Until we went in, i saw a guy sitting on the stairs*old wood kind* from.. around 8m from my distance where we were supposed to walk there. It's was very dark there at night. i didn't care much and keep walking and chatting with them.

At the very moment i was walking down the stairs halfway, I thought of the guy just now.

I asked baby and sam whether they saw anyone sit there just now or walk away from the stairs where i was standing, they replied no, then i sprained my ankle. D:

fucking pain! it's was swollen until now. Though not very serious but I need to be careful next time. I was born with a very strong sixth sense. ): Kinda creepy. should drive in next time, safer.

LUCKILY, baby was there to save me, he PIGGYBACK meeeee! :D

i was so touched can! Thank you baby once again! :DDDDDD

Never felt so safe before. :x

Hahahaha.

Haiyaaa! I'm gonna miss the Dior's induction session. ):

Hope they will rearrange another session soon soon soon!

Never been to Dior's training before, kinda looking forward & excited.

Wish time can pass quickly this week! D:

Okay, pictures shall do the talk.

Pictures @ AVALON.

MOMMY AND DIDI!

HAPPY 2ND BIRTHDAY TOOPI!

& a happy 9th month, baby.

TOOPI just say Hi to you! He is so cute right? :) COW costume!

Suits his brand new bed! haha. no cakie, :( No time to buy. But i do my best to make him happy. In fact, he seems HAPPY! He wasn't naughty today! *Though he keep on bullying smurfy.

Baby was here to celebrate with him too. :)

My wish for toopi's birthday:

Toopi, I'm is always here to love you.

You are 2 years old now.

No matter how naughty you are, you are still mommy's precious.

I will do my best as a mommy duty to feed you, protect you & love you forever.

Wokay, yesterday went to Avalon with baby joe*daddy*, nicholas*mommy* and xiao sam*brother. the atmosphere was good till, HE gave me the shit.

My mood was super super down till the tip of my heels. Yet you wasn't there to cheer me up. It's not that I angry and upset for a stupid small matter, it's because the promise you made, we once made.

I see people, couples in the club, grinding, dancing, kissing and smiling happily like how we used to be. But now? Why am i feeling so envy whenever I see couple doing that while I'm like, 'dancing with a friend'?

We used to walk me back home, sit at the void deck chatting, but now? Why am I feeling I am going home alone everyday and no one I can speak to?

We used to write letters, take pictures. Why don't I receive any letters or upload any of our pictures?

You used to cook breakfast for us, Why am I keep eating cereals?

Is that really your 'end of your effort' already?

There's tons and tons of questions in my mind that was not answered, confused and unsolved.

I cried like a river but no one knows.

Yes, only toopi knows. But he didn't care. -.-

I'm really trying my best to slow down, for our future, and for not letting our memories pass by so fast. But I see no grateful.

Oh well. I gave him a letter today, he said my letter woke him up.

So in the first place, I was falling in love with a Zombie? :/

What am I supposed to do or say?

I JUST MISS THE OLD YOU.

All I want you is to reflect on yourself. What have you done? & What should you do?

I understand you are busy with your work and stuff but, you can't just throw me aside.

If I really care, I will come down and find you for that 5mins outside your house to see you.

If I really care, I would cook breakfast during weekend and pass to you in the morning for work.

If I really care, I would make plans for out free time to go out, just the two of us.

If I really care, I wouldn't do stuff to make you upset cause I know you need me.

IF. Too bad this problem doesn't lie on me. If not I can be the perfect man.

Hah. Alright, shall not write anything more stuff. It's late.

At least today, he cheered me up a little. *thank you baby* :)

Hopefully next post would be a happy one. :) Goodnight darlings.

I may not be a good girlfriend,

but I am willling to be one.

Thank you for loving me,

as I once felt loved by you.

Lastly, I WANT MORE MOONS, BABY. MORE MOONS!

Forever Love.

A song that always in my mind.

Today was my off day, nothing special.

Bathed toopi and 4 little creatures.

Went to find my mommy and nieces.

Was fun playing with them, though they only care about my ipod!

Shall bring them out one day when pay comes! :D

Had SUBWAYYYY for dinner!

Alright, everyone should be wondering what my previous post of think too much means,

it's about marriage, kids, and stuffs. I feel that I am ready but my partner was not. Alot of thoughts came up and we quite upset about that matter actually. i shall not think so much cause i know it wont happen so soon anyway.

Let's not talk about this anymore. TOOPI's birthday is coming!

What should i get for him? I have already bought a luxury bed for him!

Anyone wanna get him a present, I DON'T MIND! JUST PM ME! :D

I should get him a cake i guess. I did not celebrate for him last year. ):

Will celebrate in advance, 23rd! so, stay tune for pic pic pics!

Gonna research what's up in the World, fashion and stuffs and go to bed.

Bye peopleee! <3

Hello Everybody!! :)

I am back for blogging once AGAIN!

For those people who drop by to my blog,

THANKS for reading cause i know, you care! :)

Well, lately i been working on my full-time job @ pets' station since Feb,

but last day on Oct 9Th, WHOOPS! Kind of bad news.

Not really satisfied with the job so, move on!

BACK TO Dior! woo-hoo~! *part time only* :(

To summarise my past journey,

I've a dog, TOOPI,

Another four hamsters*actually FIVE*

pop up suddenly!

But toopi always wanted to eat them. ):

Next,

Me and my boyf, mr. Joe Tan Yong Zheng,

had eloped to the MOON,

1st stop, Genting,

2nd, Bangkok.

Wonder where will the 3rd be? hmmm.*next year*

These 8 months++ was fun, sweet, spicy and sexy. i simply love IT! But we did change through out the period. I can say that from sweetness to kinda.. sour*my personal thought FOR NOW* I guess?

It's because of our job, society and environment.

i don't blame anyone. :) that's a good thing.

Yesterday i have been thinking a lot. get emotional, cried, listen to sad songs.

Then i realised, it's doesn't really matter at all. What i should do is to cherish the moment i have now, be it boyf, family or friends.

I have to do something in order for me to stop thinking,

which is, opening a business. :)

Well, still a LONG WAY to go.

That will makes me stronger.

I want to change my life totally.

for my family, you, future.