CURLY HAIR! :P

Okay, let's talk about these days "happening"

24 november 2011 -

Is it a misunderstanding?

Or you want it to end like that?

Last night, my heart stopped for an hour.

It's like few more hours to 11th month.

I know that I'm silly. But.. I chose to follow my heart.

The pain in my heart, will never be able to describe in words.

It will never be the same again. But I'm hoping for the future.

25th november 2011

Rest at home

Cry a lot, think a lot.

Feel like pamper myself,

so I went to do treatment on my hair. :)

26th November 2011

yeap, went out to SCAPE for sakae sushi. Baby spent his day on me today.

I wanted to have a RETAIL THERAPY but,

We went H&M and nothing caught our eyes.

So we went window shopping at 313, cine and robinson,

Baby bought me a top and I bought myself a lingerie. :)

Thanks Baby.. i really really appreciated it. (though I don't wish you to see this part)

I know baby's trying, I can feel it. But try not to be too fake uh! hah

After that went to..

TATA~! Ton @ Nicholas mommy house with Xiao Sam and Baby! :D

Watch soccer and HANNA THE MOVIE. LOL. Quite a lame show but funny luh.

But I went to rest early cause the next day need working morning. ):

They should have guys talks and cuddling together. HAHA. Silly them.

27th November 2011

Dinner togther at roti prata shop. Though we had some misunderstanding again, end up okay already loh. BROTHERS' TALKS after that! hahaha! I have never been to have like this kinds of talks before! Even my Girlfs! *whoops! yea, they tried to counsel me, but, my mind is set. It will affect a little but, I'm just stubborn luh. sigh. I know Nic and Sam trying their best to help out and I would love to but what I really need to do is untie the knot in my heart. which had received a few cuts by Baby. Every time I tried to touch the knot, it bleeds a little.

Tell you what, NICKY MOMMY AND SAMMY BROTHER are the best listener man! THANKS YO! :D

28th November 2011

watching "kinship" on channel 8 now.

Though it's a drama, but what I see it's like how we are now.

It's a different situation, (it's like showing the couple hesitating being together cause the guy used to pamper her a lot but now it's the other way round). blah blah blah. ):

haiya, don't wanna think so much luh.

A peaceful day perhaps?

P.s -We use to tell every little thing to each other.

now.. I've freed you.

But, if you wanna do something, don't ask for my opinion, STAND IN MY SHOES INSTEAD.

SUPER JUMBO YAMI YOGURT was my dinner yesterday! :) HAH HAH!

Wah seh! today omw to work, I saw this auntie stand opposite me playing psp! I was surprised! She is very concentrate playing her psp ok! somemore trendy red. haha. I also lazy to touch my psp already. haiyo. ):

2 more days pay comes! I wanna do hair treatment, buy christmas gift, iphone/ipad2.. ): wlau. $.$ hmmm. On Monday after work, I finally decided to go FABULOUS first time for waxing. OMG FUCKING PAIN! I'm like paying people to toture me. But it's quite cheap and affordable also. Staffs are friendly cause they calm me down. LOL. Quickzillian only $28. People who scared expensive but want to try can go try out.

BUT overall, I'm satisfied. *ti etaicerppa smeems t'ndid eh tuB

Well, these few days think a lot, smoke a lot and eat a lot.

Shall find one soulmate to talk to. ): Not that I want, is I left with no choice. Sigh.

If I have to tell you what to do, you are not who you are anymore. I'm living my life aimlessly. Wanted to go Bangkok again, but you doesn't want to. You make me feel that you got no interest of going overseas with me, it's so different like how I first ask you about going to Genting only. Then fine loh, you stay in your country have fun and club, I definitely can find someone to accompany me.

I really don't know what you want.

& I really wish that I don't hold it too tight that we can't even breathe.

I never feel secured.

I never get convinced.

I never let people to stupid things behind me.

I know sometimes I hold it too tight, have you asked yourself why?

I don't want to cry,

I don't want to worry,

I don't want to lose someone I love too.

Now, it's like, I'm loving you, a one sided love.

Not loving each other. & I have decided, I'm holding it back.

I can't give too much and fall too deep, or else I think I will go crazy.

You used to say for the first few months you give me love. After that you stop giving and expect me to give it back to be fair. Remember? hah. I guess I gave too much now? Cause you already took me for granted.

That's why my r/s always like that.

ONE MORE!

Last saturday, BB and I went to open flea market! :)

I can say.. consider a small success bah. Cos at least I know what young people prefer. haha.

Nicholas mommy and Xiao sam bro come to find us at flea market. Lucky they come to entertain us! hahah. Thanks ah!

Okay! next time when I open flea market, I will update here okay! :D

Then people who reads my blog come support me! HAHAHA.

I'm gonna keep my mind clear now & work on this. I can go overseas alone if I want. I won't let small obstacles stop me just like that. :)

It's been quite long I didn't camwhore already,

Hah. Totally no time, okay. Tomorrow see my mood lah! :p

Come to think of it. Our photo was not update since like 2 months ago.

We really drifted because of work and people.

Here's a song dedicated to the ones who understand me. <3

Goodnight.

My that new hairdo. now like shit! must go do treatment already..

Phew, finally my lappy is back! gotta write a lot man!

So fast Mid-November already, like fast! Been working in Dior for 1 month plus..

So far so good loh. heh. Hope there is a good news.

Bought something in DIOR family sales! Yay! But, aiyah, not for me luh. As you know, I love people more than I love myself mah. That's why people always say I stupid loh.

Because..

Well, one thing that upset me deeply.. Relationship. Why every time I get is like that?

I have enough of those, seriously. I just want to settle down, peacefully. Though I know couples quarrel but not, not being understanding! It's fine if you doesn't know the person well. But in fact, they know you, yet they hurt you. I don't understand why. We are all humans. Can't they just use their brains to think for a few seconds about their partner? It's not that they being considerate will die! Even Toopi is smarter. when they get to know you, they do everything to please you. now? they want you to please them. The sentence, 'YOU CAN FOLLOW ME TO CLUB, BUT DON'T BLAME ME IF I NEGLECTED YOU CAUSE I WANT TO HAVE FUN'. Such irresponsible stupidity disgraceful words can be out from your mouth. Yet, @ that point of time I still answered OK blindly. How stupid I was. Importance of me was just meeting me up and stuff. I'm seriously don't know how to take it. You still have a long way to go. I just felt that I'm wasn't your type at all. You need a open-r/s. And I want a faithful husband. We seems to be a different world. Even in career. Yes, 1 more thing. Do you realised you changed? Well, I've changed too. I've changed to love you blindly. Lucky you woke me up. No one wish to take themselves for granted. Neither you too.

Sigh, oh well, just wanted to say, I miss my girlfs.

PICTURES @ BISHAN PRAWNING WITH awesome colleagues & celebrating apple's birthday!

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A little sweet darling I've.

RIGHT NOW, I'M AT SAMUEL'S HOUSE WITH BABY! :)

Both of them are doing project stuffs while I'm doing rubbish stuffs here like researching, blogging, shophop-ping! haha! might playing maple if possible! :D

Well, about working, I'm still working on it. Hopefully I can see sunshine after rainy days.

I'm so sorry that pictures are in my camera. I didn't bring it to upload it. Didn't think of it. So so sorry.

Doing not much these days, working, sleeping, window shopping for baby's and my 'secret santa' game. *either joe, xiao sam or nicholas* :)

I need money! D:

Dior's private sales for staff is here! Argh! Finally is here yet I got not much money left! D:

Sigh, now baby's lappy is dying. I need to let him use mine! zzz.

alright, he's nagging already.

see ya, love!