Things I can't control..

I dreamt of you, almost every night..

New Year, New Start, New Life.

I am so sorry that I have always been neglecting this website for so long, though I don't bother much about it.

Every time I came here, probably there's something excited to share, or pour my sorrows out.

& today, I am here to pour myself out. HAH.

Yes, first of all, it's a new year! We have overcome doomsday! :) But I do hope that day will come..

New start.. Yes, was actually started to move forward, but it ended. What a silly thing..

I have never encounter such a situation before. I'm trying hard too. Maybe, fate is not here yet. Or maybe, It's our problem, or just me.

I shouldn't have keep quiet and let things rush,

That now, I have lost a good long-lost friend, as well as his group of awesome friends.. 

New life.. I AM GOING 21ST!!! Finally and I hope it stops right there.. :(

I am so excited yet at the same time, feel sad and stupid of all the silly things I have done in the past.

I felt that I have wasted 21st yrs on Earth..

But thanks to my foolishness, dumbness & wilfulness, I have learnt a lot.

Knowing who is there for me, who is not.. what is right and wrong.. handling situation..

& this very year.. I had enough of all this nonsense..

I want to be thrifty, excel in my work, giving my family my best, & have a of change myself.

Sometimes I wondered, was it me, or other people does not understand me? Why I always never make things right?

My attitude and my stubbornness got me into many troubles till now.. I finally realised that I should change, in order to let other people to treat me differently, I guessed.

I don't know whether I'm thinking of all this because I've grown up or not. Or maybe I have been through a lot. But God please, just let me be childish, wilful and stubborn till 6th feb 2013. I promise that I will let go of my past and start afresh. I seriously do not want to grow old.. ): 

I have rested for 4 days, also did cried for 4 days as well.. Monday is coming!! need to start work!