Am I happy?

The flowers that he bought for me on valentine's day. :) Thanks bee. But you know, I don't need flowers to be happy. I just need you.

The STAGE cap was from jeromeeee, it's a birthday present he got for me in tw. Thankie! :D

These are the pictures for Dior D&D at Grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel, the food is nice! :)

Our theme was BACK TO SCHOOL! haha.

The people are awesome! All super high!

Well, MC-ed today, no money, in fact waste money to consult doctor. ):

Yea, he cooked my fave omelette for me! :)

But he really disappoint me.after wasting so much of my time, money, youth, he then tell me he doesn't want to help me throughout my business any more. 

In the first place, he told me he wanted to help me cause it can also help his marketing course or whatever shit. *Some sort in the way that he is using me* NOW? he wanted to back off to help his friends. WTF is this? what kind of businessman is this?

This kind of people can never success, you know why? 'Cause you are just 3mins heat only.

 I thought I can use you too. Put it in the way that you are my benefactor lah hor.

but you only brings me disappointment, again and again.

Well, here comes my emo problems.

I trust him again and again, but WHY does he need to break it again and again?

I gave him freedom, yet he asking for more.

Until he ignored my text while being with his friends. What kind of shit is this?

Is this, A HEALTHY R/S TO YOU? Texting you 3 times from the morning, a call in the evening, end up, your friend's dad said you are out for a movie. I fucking thought something bad might happen to you or something, I am so fucking worried. End up you are having fun? Gosh. 

From the moment I knew you are having fun, I'm fucking cursing you, hoping something bad will happen you. That's how you will learn the lesson. Telling me you are excited to meet them, friends are more important to you sometimes? You are just pushing the blame cause you are just ignoring my text in the morning from the start. Don't tell me your movie start from morning till night. Will not do this again? Let the sleep makes me forget this matter? fuck you no way.

EXCITED TO MEET THEM - What excuses is this? Are they aliens? try harder, man.

 Don't act like a kid and don't think I'm stupid. If you really love or care about someone, no matter where or when, you will try to contact them, at least a text, telling them you are fine. You are just simply selfish.

FRIENDS ARE MORE IMPORTANT SOMETIMES? - Then fuck off! When you got money issues, cigg issues or need calculator or whatever shit. DON'T FIND ME. Your friends will always be there, no need to xia suey! & when you said that sentence, 

I RATHER BE YOUR FRIEND.

WILL NOT DO THIS AGAIN? - I don't think you even have the chance to, my dear.

If there is one day, you did not text or call me at all, you will not be able to contact me any more.

LET THE SLEEP MAKES ME FORGET THIS - Hah, in your next life then. Woman can forgive, but never forgets. I may not be the one who will do this to you, cause I believe in KARMA. Perhaps somebody who you really love, or your wife treats you this way then.

You can never understand what I want, really want. Cause you've said it : 

Friends are more important, and This is me. There's no way to change it.

Don't you think you're selfish? You win liao loh. What's more can I say?

GUYS, sorry for all the nagging blah blah blah. I just want to vent it out. Cause I tell him, he also wont understand. Scroll down for the pictures!

GOSH! I'm finally 20! D:

Specially thanks to shirley, geri, cindy, fahmy, seri, khaty, ivan, farhan, rhaihan, and jeremy!

Had an awesome night with them at arenaaaaaa! phew! They are crazy! LOL. But I love them!

Of course, I puked. Hah.

Well, welcome to the 20s' life.

I should be old enough to think and do.

Nothing much on my actual birthday. Rot around in the center of the island, a boring birthday I would said.

Visit his grandma, bought nothing, dinner at Concorde Hotel, black pepper crab was crazy! Super spicy!

Thought I would be singing 祝我生日快乐 alone on my birthday.

But Joe, thanks for helping me to celebrate again. Though it's not that special like last year, but I appreciated that.

My 20th birthday doesn't seems to be good, cried for a night in order to pass my birthday. Hah.

And thanks for all the well wishes! Hope 20 onwards will be better than my teenage.

I'm really tired. I seriously don't know what you want. I want a man who put me like his family at priority. I want OUR future, not your future. What about you? You can't be selfish. Though I doesn't want you to ACT this way. But I won't be giving in and pretend nothing happen every time. I have feelings too. You rather care/spare a thought about others than your love ones(or your ONCE- LOVED)? You wouldn't want to feel how I am gonna to treat you back, right?

& Sometimes, I just pretend to be happy.

There is alot of things in my mind when I say there wasn't. I just don't want to make you worry because you have school proj. You don't realise uh? So I just walked away when you said you wanna buy that tissue. 

But men are too dumb to realise all this. Then they will think women are paranoid.

You said you will change, trying to change, I see nothing. Perhaps after your graduation I guess. We shall see. I want to be a lucky woman, not a stupid woman. 

A relationship doesn't get worse when there is quarrels,

It get worse when there isn't a thing a fight with.

I seriously do not wish this post to be unhappy. But I can't pretend to be happy anymore.