Hospitalised

)": Got hospitalised.
Bad stomach. Doctor say inflammation, nothing to do with my overnight mash-potato (with melted spoon) in the oven. Plus my body is weak, "ping xue", I nearly faint outside TWG. But at least I used my last energy to call the boutique to save me. LOL. My face was white like a paper at that time. & TWG's staff got me a chocolate macaron. :) BUT BB ATE IT! ):
First time ambulance fetch me to get hospitalised. Super paiseh TTM!
I wonder next time I start work, people there will recognize me or not. ):

I swear I don't want to admit to the hospital anymore. They pur me 3 bottle of sodium chloride, suck my blood, which I've got no blood for them to suck at the moment. ): Now my wrist got bruise cause of the needle. Then sit on the wheelchair till I pek cek. Then they got me a bed to slp on. From 2 plus wait till 8 plus then discharge. ):

SIGH, I'VE JUST GOT INTO DIOR'S FULLTIME YET THIS HAPPENED TO ME!
Why it didn't come earlier or at least 3 months later?! now is my probation period, very important loh! ):
Now I'm just hoping everything would be fine. :')

Will be resting at home these two days,
Cough like hell also. Daddy want to give me chocolate to soothe my throat. Mommy scold him. How princess am i! :D whahahahas.
But especially, mommy don't allow COLD DRINKS, NO SEAFOOD, NO FRIED FOOD & NO MASH POTATO AT ALL.
All my fave are gone. ):

But I'm gonna get my new phone later. Then I will feel better. :) See you in a bit! :D

Am I happy?

The flowers that he bought for me on valentine's day. :) Thanks bee. But you know, I don't need flowers to be happy. I just need you.

The STAGE cap was from jeromeeee, it's a birthday present he got for me in tw. Thankie! :D

These are the pictures for Dior D&D at Grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel, the food is nice! :)

Our theme was BACK TO SCHOOL! haha.

The people are awesome! All super high!

Well, MC-ed today, no money, in fact waste money to consult doctor. ):

Yea, he cooked my fave omelette for me! :)

But he really disappoint me.after wasting so much of my time, money, youth, he then tell me he doesn't want to help me throughout my business any more. 

In the first place, he told me he wanted to help me cause it can also help his marketing course or whatever shit. *Some sort in the way that he is using me* NOW? he wanted to back off to help his friends. WTF is this? what kind of businessman is this?

This kind of people can never success, you know why? 'Cause you are just 3mins heat only.

 I thought I can use you too. Put it in the way that you are my benefactor lah hor.

but you only brings me disappointment, again and again.

Well, here comes my emo problems.

I trust him again and again, but WHY does he need to break it again and again?

I gave him freedom, yet he asking for more.

Until he ignored my text while being with his friends. What kind of shit is this?

Is this, A HEALTHY R/S TO YOU? Texting you 3 times from the morning, a call in the evening, end up, your friend's dad said you are out for a movie. I fucking thought something bad might happen to you or something, I am so fucking worried. End up you are having fun? Gosh. 

From the moment I knew you are having fun, I'm fucking cursing you, hoping something bad will happen you. That's how you will learn the lesson. Telling me you are excited to meet them, friends are more important to you sometimes? You are just pushing the blame cause you are just ignoring my text in the morning from the start. Don't tell me your movie start from morning till night. Will not do this again? Let the sleep makes me forget this matter? fuck you no way.

EXCITED TO MEET THEM - What excuses is this? Are they aliens? try harder, man.

 Don't act like a kid and don't think I'm stupid. If you really love or care about someone, no matter where or when, you will try to contact them, at least a text, telling them you are fine. You are just simply selfish.

FRIENDS ARE MORE IMPORTANT SOMETIMES? - Then fuck off! When you got money issues, cigg issues or need calculator or whatever shit. DON'T FIND ME. Your friends will always be there, no need to xia suey! & when you said that sentence, 

I RATHER BE YOUR FRIEND.

WILL NOT DO THIS AGAIN? - I don't think you even have the chance to, my dear.

If there is one day, you did not text or call me at all, you will not be able to contact me any more.

LET THE SLEEP MAKES ME FORGET THIS - Hah, in your next life then. Woman can forgive, but never forgets. I may not be the one who will do this to you, cause I believe in KARMA. Perhaps somebody who you really love, or your wife treats you this way then.

You can never understand what I want, really want. Cause you've said it : 

Friends are more important, and This is me. There's no way to change it.

Don't you think you're selfish? You win liao loh. What's more can I say?

GUYS, sorry for all the nagging blah blah blah. I just want to vent it out. Cause I tell him, he also wont understand. Scroll down for the pictures!

GOSH! I'm finally 20! D:

Specially thanks to shirley, geri, cindy, fahmy, seri, khaty, ivan, farhan, rhaihan, and jeremy!

Had an awesome night with them at arenaaaaaa! phew! They are crazy! LOL. But I love them!

Of course, I puked. Hah.

Well, welcome to the 20s' life.

I should be old enough to think and do.

Nothing much on my actual birthday. Rot around in the center of the island, a boring birthday I would said.

Visit his grandma, bought nothing, dinner at Concorde Hotel, black pepper crab was crazy! Super spicy!

Thought I would be singing 祝我生日快乐 alone on my birthday.

But Joe, thanks for helping me to celebrate again. Though it's not that special like last year, but I appreciated that.

My 20th birthday doesn't seems to be good, cried for a night in order to pass my birthday. Hah.

And thanks for all the well wishes! Hope 20 onwards will be better than my teenage.

I'm really tired. I seriously don't know what you want. I want a man who put me like his family at priority. I want OUR future, not your future. What about you? You can't be selfish. Though I doesn't want you to ACT this way. But I won't be giving in and pretend nothing happen every time. I have feelings too. You rather care/spare a thought about others than your love ones(or your ONCE- LOVED)? You wouldn't want to feel how I am gonna to treat you back, right?

& Sometimes, I just pretend to be happy.

There is alot of things in my mind when I say there wasn't. I just don't want to make you worry because you have school proj. You don't realise uh? So I just walked away when you said you wanna buy that tissue. 

But men are too dumb to realise all this. Then they will think women are paranoid.

You said you will change, trying to change, I see nothing. Perhaps after your graduation I guess. We shall see. I want to be a lucky woman, not a stupid woman. 

A relationship doesn't get worse when there is quarrels,

It get worse when there isn't a thing a fight with.

I seriously do not wish this post to be unhappy. But I can't pretend to be happy anymore.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR DARLINGS!

This year not so happening, only go father's side. Did not gambled much. ARGH! Cause all small kids. Hah!

Didn't manage to play mahjiong. ): The whole day wasn't really good. But it's a good thing that everyone gather and have fun. :) Granny's really getting weak. But I can sense she is still strong ya! :)

Second day was just having steamboat with my family and aunt, sherman and uncle @ my house. :)

Went to BB's house to "bai nian"

Then back to my house to have steamboat.

Bought a few stuffs online again. ): I NEED SOMEONE TO STOP ME! 

Haha. That goes my Chinese New Year. I miss the old CNY. Much more lively and noisy!

Sunday gonna go Dr. Neo's house to "bai nian". :) Hope it will be fun!

Tomorrow will be another boring day.

Bangkok anyone seriously? Of course I will choose who I want to go with!

Since he doesn't want to go, I got no choice also. I will not stop myself from doing things that I like even if he doesn't want cause I feel stupid if I do that.

When I need you, 

where are you?

When I need someone to talk to,

where are you?

When I need help and advise,

where are you?

When I need encouragement and support,

where are you?

When I need love, 

where is it?

No friends,

No lover.

& finally, we get to take a picture after so long ever since from Christmas till now?

 CNY -  DAY 1 

Never get a chance to take with everyone. ALL my face! HAHA!

I know what I want

HEYY! :) That is what my cousin got for me! NATHAN ROAD! 

The street where I first stay in HK. The board is super big! 

Actually there is a smaller version which is a magnet. HAH, now this one I don't know where to hang!

But, I have to say, many thanks to my cousin! :D

Cause she went there for wedding photoshoot. Everything is so pretty and perfect.

It's kinda envy luh.

& everyone keep asking : when's my turn? when's my turn?! 

Telling me the packages and stuffs.

Like putting salt into my wounds. :( Very irritating you know?

So, I keep console myself : I'M ONLY 20! :)

So that I feel better. haha

*But I'm still trying to figure out myself, cause I'm really scared of wasting my youth just like that, NO!*

Since I'm young, why not doing something risky eh? :D

I always wanted to travel, always. Parents are not supportive, toopi's around or whatever.

Sometime I just don't wanna stay at home. I got nagged for nothing, telling me that I've done nothing good, don't focus in career. Yea, thanks to all these rubbish. I've wasted my 20 years. If you are supportive enough, I would have been a successful woman. All you do is nag, like free-of-charge. I know you both treat me like princess, a gem that you don't wanna see me got hurt or scratched. But I can't even focus.

But this time, I will risk. no matter wtf you gonna nag. I know what I want. I'm no longer young. I'm gonna be a traveller, around the world ; successful entrepreneur ; and a faithful wife.

If I believe I can, I can. 

Oh, the two pictures below is I'm trying to act decent luh. Heh.

I look like "ah lian" meh? Maybe last time lah.

My face is just being fierce when I doesn't smile.

But bear said I have changed. :) I like wearing specs anyway though I have perfect eyesight. :B

GOT THIS TODAY @ Robinsons!

A set of 5 different curler. Quite cheap, though.

SGD 74.90

Aunt bought this and a red packet as an advanced birthday present for me.

It's like telling me to turn 20 faster! HAHA

But just nice I've got 40$ voucher from Christmas.

Perfect, gonna try this tomorrow! :D

Had YU SHENG and lotsa yummy food yesterday @ gu gu's place. 

Not a good day to start! ): 

GOOD FOOD, GOOD LIFE & I WANTED MORE!

Been busy working these days! sorry! 

But right now, I am wasting my time @ baby's house doing nothing cause he is sleeping yet he wants me to come over. =.= Oh well!

He is busy with his school stuffs anyway.

Now I've realised my parfums, my cosmetics are DIOR DIOR DIOR! 

My eye-shadow colours : earth reflection

The colours are easy to match with occasions, like white gold, bronze, brown, yellow gold and pink!

I don't use pink though. haha. The colours are outstanding but not giving a too much look!

SGD 92

 My DIOR LOVE. (mascara extreme, dior skin foundation & eye shadow)

Just dyed my hair, trimmed and treatment = $88

CHEAP!

Thought the colour would be darker cause it's said dark brown, end up my virgin hair seems brighter! D:

I'm just scared that I will look like 'ah lian'. LOL.

But my hair is so bouncy right now! :)

Will go back there again! at least their service is better than the previous one! 

New year day, Xiao sam treated us Jones the grocer, & I appreciated it. Thanks yea!

We had different dishes to try out, & most importantly, PARMA HAMM!

Ending with a pot of tea, four different teas!

Blue Hawaii, Earl Grey, Peppermint and Cranberry tea? I forgot the last one.

haha, everyone out there perhaps can try, price wise will be reasonable if you go Dempsey's Road there.

The view is relaxing and comfortable. Best place to chill out.  

Well, no one is supportive at all. Everyone was like being sarcastic though they said they hope I can success.

Now, I don't even know who can be trusted, and can't. 

But I still believe in this, 

There are so many people out there who will tell you that you can't,

what you've got to do is turn around and say "watch me"