GOSH! I'm finally 20! D:

Specially thanks to shirley, geri, cindy, fahmy, seri, khaty, ivan, farhan, rhaihan, and jeremy!

Had an awesome night with them at arenaaaaaa! phew! They are crazy! LOL. But I love them!

Of course, I puked. Hah.

Well, welcome to the 20s' life.

I should be old enough to think and do.

Nothing much on my actual birthday. Rot around in the center of the island, a boring birthday I would said.

Visit his grandma, bought nothing, dinner at Concorde Hotel, black pepper crab was crazy! Super spicy!

Thought I would be singing 祝我生日快乐 alone on my birthday.

But Joe, thanks for helping me to celebrate again. Though it's not that special like last year, but I appreciated that.

My 20th birthday doesn't seems to be good, cried for a night in order to pass my birthday. Hah.

And thanks for all the well wishes! Hope 20 onwards will be better than my teenage.

I'm really tired. I seriously don't know what you want. I want a man who put me like his family at priority. I want OUR future, not your future. What about you? You can't be selfish. Though I doesn't want you to ACT this way. But I won't be giving in and pretend nothing happen every time. I have feelings too. You rather care/spare a thought about others than your love ones(or your ONCE- LOVED)? You wouldn't want to feel how I am gonna to treat you back, right?

& Sometimes, I just pretend to be happy.

There is alot of things in my mind when I say there wasn't. I just don't want to make you worry because you have school proj. You don't realise uh? So I just walked away when you said you wanna buy that tissue. 

But men are too dumb to realise all this. Then they will think women are paranoid.

You said you will change, trying to change, I see nothing. Perhaps after your graduation I guess. We shall see. I want to be a lucky woman, not a stupid woman. 

A relationship doesn't get worse when there is quarrels,

It get worse when there isn't a thing a fight with.

I seriously do not wish this post to be unhappy. But I can't pretend to be happy anymore.