CURLY HAIR! :P

Okay, let's talk about these days "happening"

24 november 2011 -

Is it a misunderstanding?

Or you want it to end like that?

Last night, my heart stopped for an hour.

It's like few more hours to 11th month.

I know that I'm silly. But.. I chose to follow my heart.

The pain in my heart, will never be able to describe in words.

It will never be the same again. But I'm hoping for the future.

25th november 2011

Rest at home

Cry a lot, think a lot.

Feel like pamper myself,

so I went to do treatment on my hair. :)

26th November 2011

yeap, went out to SCAPE for sakae sushi. Baby spent his day on me today.

I wanted to have a RETAIL THERAPY but,

We went H&M and nothing caught our eyes.

So we went window shopping at 313, cine and robinson,

Baby bought me a top and I bought myself a lingerie. :)

Thanks Baby.. i really really appreciated it. (though I don't wish you to see this part)

I know baby's trying, I can feel it. But try not to be too fake uh! hah

After that went to..

TATA~! Ton @ Nicholas mommy house with Xiao Sam and Baby! :D

Watch soccer and HANNA THE MOVIE. LOL. Quite a lame show but funny luh.

But I went to rest early cause the next day need working morning. ):

They should have guys talks and cuddling together. HAHA. Silly them.

27th November 2011

Dinner togther at roti prata shop. Though we had some misunderstanding again, end up okay already loh. BROTHERS' TALKS after that! hahaha! I have never been to have like this kinds of talks before! Even my Girlfs! *whoops! yea, they tried to counsel me, but, my mind is set. It will affect a little but, I'm just stubborn luh. sigh. I know Nic and Sam trying their best to help out and I would love to but what I really need to do is untie the knot in my heart. which had received a few cuts by Baby. Every time I tried to touch the knot, it bleeds a little.

Tell you what, NICKY MOMMY AND SAMMY BROTHER are the best listener man! THANKS YO! :D

28th November 2011

watching "kinship" on channel 8 now.

Though it's a drama, but what I see it's like how we are now.

It's a different situation, (it's like showing the couple hesitating being together cause the guy used to pamper her a lot but now it's the other way round). blah blah blah. ):

haiya, don't wanna think so much luh.

A peaceful day perhaps?

P.s -We use to tell every little thing to each other.

now.. I've freed you.

But, if you wanna do something, don't ask for my opinion, STAND IN MY SHOES INSTEAD.

SUPER JUMBO YAMI YOGURT was my dinner yesterday! :) HAH HAH!

Wah seh! today omw to work, I saw this auntie stand opposite me playing psp! I was surprised! She is very concentrate playing her psp ok! somemore trendy red. haha. I also lazy to touch my psp already. haiyo. ):

2 more days pay comes! I wanna do hair treatment, buy christmas gift, iphone/ipad2.. ): wlau. $.$ hmmm. On Monday after work, I finally decided to go FABULOUS first time for waxing. OMG FUCKING PAIN! I'm like paying people to toture me. But it's quite cheap and affordable also. Staffs are friendly cause they calm me down. LOL. Quickzillian only $28. People who scared expensive but want to try can go try out.

BUT overall, I'm satisfied. *ti etaicerppa smeems t'ndid eh tuB

Well, these few days think a lot, smoke a lot and eat a lot.

Shall find one soulmate to talk to. ): Not that I want, is I left with no choice. Sigh.

If I have to tell you what to do, you are not who you are anymore. I'm living my life aimlessly. Wanted to go Bangkok again, but you doesn't want to. You make me feel that you got no interest of going overseas with me, it's so different like how I first ask you about going to Genting only. Then fine loh, you stay in your country have fun and club, I definitely can find someone to accompany me.

I really don't know what you want.

& I really wish that I don't hold it too tight that we can't even breathe.

I never feel secured.

I never get convinced.

I never let people to stupid things behind me.

I know sometimes I hold it too tight, have you asked yourself why?

I don't want to cry,

I don't want to worry,

I don't want to lose someone I love too.

Now, it's like, I'm loving you, a one sided love.

Not loving each other. & I have decided, I'm holding it back.

I can't give too much and fall too deep, or else I think I will go crazy.

You used to say for the first few months you give me love. After that you stop giving and expect me to give it back to be fair. Remember? hah. I guess I gave too much now? Cause you already took me for granted.

That's why my r/s always like that.

ONE MORE!

Last saturday, BB and I went to open flea market! :)

I can say.. consider a small success bah. Cos at least I know what young people prefer. haha.

Nicholas mommy and Xiao sam bro come to find us at flea market. Lucky they come to entertain us! hahah. Thanks ah!

Okay! next time when I open flea market, I will update here okay! :D

Then people who reads my blog come support me! HAHAHA.

I'm gonna keep my mind clear now & work on this. I can go overseas alone if I want. I won't let small obstacles stop me just like that. :)

It's been quite long I didn't camwhore already,

Hah. Totally no time, okay. Tomorrow see my mood lah! :p

Come to think of it. Our photo was not update since like 2 months ago.

We really drifted because of work and people.

Here's a song dedicated to the ones who understand me. <3

Goodnight.

My that new hairdo. now like shit! must go do treatment already..

Phew, finally my lappy is back! gotta write a lot man!

So fast Mid-November already, like fast! Been working in Dior for 1 month plus..

So far so good loh. heh. Hope there is a good news.

Bought something in DIOR family sales! Yay! But, aiyah, not for me luh. As you know, I love people more than I love myself mah. That's why people always say I stupid loh.

Because..

Well, one thing that upset me deeply.. Relationship. Why every time I get is like that?

I have enough of those, seriously. I just want to settle down, peacefully. Though I know couples quarrel but not, not being understanding! It's fine if you doesn't know the person well. But in fact, they know you, yet they hurt you. I don't understand why. We are all humans. Can't they just use their brains to think for a few seconds about their partner? It's not that they being considerate will die! Even Toopi is smarter. when they get to know you, they do everything to please you. now? they want you to please them. The sentence, 'YOU CAN FOLLOW ME TO CLUB, BUT DON'T BLAME ME IF I NEGLECTED YOU CAUSE I WANT TO HAVE FUN'. Such irresponsible stupidity disgraceful words can be out from your mouth. Yet, @ that point of time I still answered OK blindly. How stupid I was. Importance of me was just meeting me up and stuff. I'm seriously don't know how to take it. You still have a long way to go. I just felt that I'm wasn't your type at all. You need a open-r/s. And I want a faithful husband. We seems to be a different world. Even in career. Yes, 1 more thing. Do you realised you changed? Well, I've changed too. I've changed to love you blindly. Lucky you woke me up. No one wish to take themselves for granted. Neither you too.

Sigh, oh well, just wanted to say, I miss my girlfs.

PICTURES @ BISHAN PRAWNING WITH awesome colleagues & celebrating apple's birthday!

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A little sweet darling I've.

RIGHT NOW, I'M AT SAMUEL'S HOUSE WITH BABY! :)

Both of them are doing project stuffs while I'm doing rubbish stuffs here like researching, blogging, shophop-ping! haha! might playing maple if possible! :D

Well, about working, I'm still working on it. Hopefully I can see sunshine after rainy days.

I'm so sorry that pictures are in my camera. I didn't bring it to upload it. Didn't think of it. So so sorry.

Doing not much these days, working, sleeping, window shopping for baby's and my 'secret santa' game. *either joe, xiao sam or nicholas* :)

I need money! D:

Dior's private sales for staff is here! Argh! Finally is here yet I got not much money left! D:

Sigh, now baby's lappy is dying. I need to let him use mine! zzz.

alright, he's nagging already.

see ya, love!

no men are good.

even MONKs! Is it so hard to understand what a girl wants? It's not difficult to give, or something that guys don't have. It's just your little consideration, little love.

I'm not angry about men. Just upset about why society is like that? Why men can't be faithful a bit, considerate a bit, and put themselves in other shoes a bit? You may think it's okay, but others are not. why people have to be selfish? Neglecting one and other's feelings?

Life is unfair. You might say I'm not close to superior or whoever that's why I don't act like that. But does that means you are closer to them than me? I don't see your concern, your love and a little consideration. In men's eyes, women may be bimbo and stupid. But in women's eyes, men are stupid because you never knew what truly a women wants, you are selfish because you wanted more. Men never care as long as they are happy. I know it's not applied to ALL men but those who really not are noble, god-gifted and it's really one in a million that is not mine. Men tends to lose everything, THEN they want to get back what they used to have. Sorry bro, what has gone is gone. "good horse never turn back eat old grass". One instinct in human was, they won't learn till they learnt their lesson. I have enough of all these happening in my whole 19years of life. I don't like it at all. when they love you, they treat you like a princess. They promise you all kinds of little to big things just for you. And they did for the first few months. After they had enough of you, they started to break promises, fail to give you what you want, treated you like a slave and dump you when they found a new one. But when you don't appreciate them, they complained. when you appreciate them, they take you for granted. especially the young guys. When third party wanted to flirt you back or sweet talk to you, you can always sense that even you don't have any motive on them AND AVOID SAYING WEIRD STUFFS*you should know what I meant* TO THEM. If not, they might get the wrong idea. No string attached would be fine too uh? Hah. Just like what I've heard of one customer's husband being unfaithful.

ALL WOMEN, NO MATTER HOW STRONG OR WEAK THEY ARE,

THEY STILL NEED LOVE FROM MEN.

REGARDLESS THOSE MEN ARE ATTACHED/MARRIED.

It's just men are too dumb and fall for it, ends up they lost their love ones who is really been there for them. You can't stop someone harming you, but you can stop yourself from being harm.

Why should I care for you?

Why should I give in to you?

Why should I listen to you?

Why should I think of you before I decide on anything?

Why should I plan for our future?

Why should I do so much for you?

Why should I feel upset for you?

Why should I pamper you?

Why should I spend on you?

Why should I even LOVE you?

These 10 questions, no men can answer that, I swear. Unless they really care, and love you, I guess.

Cause sometime I really think that I am so stupid to do all these things for you.

Yet on my birthday till now, you have not do the promise you've made for me on your own.

And sometime, I just want to be alone, from everyone.

Don't feel like posting many pictures today. Moodless plus tomorrow gotta work morning.

I will make sure,

men will regret for not being faithful to their love ones.

HELLOOOOO!

OMFG. I didn't even have time to blog!

Yeap! Though First day of work was fun, of course! But I felt lost. There is alot of new products and inspiration I didn't know. Quite hard to serve. But now was okay! ANYWAY, there is a DIOR HOMME EXHIBITION IN ION NOW! Till 30 of October. Feel free can drop by! :D It's about the making of DIOR HOMME tuxedo.

Phew! Busy till no time to take pictures at all!

But it was fun after all~

Pay haven't come pay haven't come! This month is the most boring month! no shopping!

Gosh! How am i gonna tahan?! really need to save up, for christmas. hah, CAN'T WAIT FOR IT MAN! Should i rent a car anot? cost about 200 bucks leh. Anyone got any lobang can tell me ok?

& now I'm gonna research some resources for my christmas programme. planning is so troublesome! argh! :D pictures I will upload tomorrow okay? That time prawning session not uploaded yet.

*apple bought treats from taiwan for toopi!! :D thanks love!

Baby and I were busy these days, but we treasure the times together. Yesterday at Zouk was fun! :D EVERYONE WAS SQUEEZE LIKE HAMBURGER! But we enjoyed every moment of it.

& baby, I want parma ham! :D

Samantha signing off.

Yesterday was my last day!! :)

Was kinda sad cause I know I will miss them D:

Thanks to haibin, mee eng and paul for THREE YAMI YOGURT!

& today, I went to eat 'PU TIEN' with ah yi and shermannnn @ jurong point!

had a wonderful dinner and a beautiful dress from ah yi! :D

walk and shop around JP. was kinda tired but it's worth it with aunt and cousin.

I ate one whole plate my mussels myself can! :D cause both of them don't like mussels. HAHA

Imma happy girl today!

Actually I have a lot to do but 24 hours seems not enough to me.

Especially planning stuff. If you are too busy to plan, I will plan myself. As long as I got the drive, no one can stop or drag me. I don't want to regret. I want to be successful!!

Got to finish planning by Dec. I MUST!

PLUS PLUS PLUS! I PASSED MY TP ON MY DADDY'S BIRTHDAY! :D 10/10/11

Then we went to eat at 'Eng Seng Restaurant'. The food is nice but the people there like rushing for reincarnation. I ate 3 GONG, 1 and a half body! yummyyyy. Will drive there to eat again! & also visit my grandmama. :D