no men are good.

even MONKs! Is it so hard to understand what a girl wants? It's not difficult to give, or something that guys don't have. It's just your little consideration, little love.

I'm not angry about men. Just upset about why society is like that? Why men can't be faithful a bit, considerate a bit, and put themselves in other shoes a bit? You may think it's okay, but others are not. why people have to be selfish? Neglecting one and other's feelings?

Life is unfair. You might say I'm not close to superior or whoever that's why I don't act like that. But does that means you are closer to them than me? I don't see your concern, your love and a little consideration. In men's eyes, women may be bimbo and stupid. But in women's eyes, men are stupid because you never knew what truly a women wants, you are selfish because you wanted more. Men never care as long as they are happy. I know it's not applied to ALL men but those who really not are noble, god-gifted and it's really one in a million that is not mine. Men tends to lose everything, THEN they want to get back what they used to have. Sorry bro, what has gone is gone. "good horse never turn back eat old grass". One instinct in human was, they won't learn till they learnt their lesson. I have enough of all these happening in my whole 19years of life. I don't like it at all. when they love you, they treat you like a princess. They promise you all kinds of little to big things just for you. And they did for the first few months. After they had enough of you, they started to break promises, fail to give you what you want, treated you like a slave and dump you when they found a new one. But when you don't appreciate them, they complained. when you appreciate them, they take you for granted. especially the young guys. When third party wanted to flirt you back or sweet talk to you, you can always sense that even you don't have any motive on them AND AVOID SAYING WEIRD STUFFS*you should know what I meant* TO THEM. If not, they might get the wrong idea. No string attached would be fine too uh? Hah. Just like what I've heard of one customer's husband being unfaithful.

ALL WOMEN, NO MATTER HOW STRONG OR WEAK THEY ARE,

THEY STILL NEED LOVE FROM MEN.

REGARDLESS THOSE MEN ARE ATTACHED/MARRIED.

It's just men are too dumb and fall for it, ends up they lost their love ones who is really been there for them. You can't stop someone harming you, but you can stop yourself from being harm.

Why should I care for you?

Why should I give in to you?

Why should I listen to you?

Why should I think of you before I decide on anything?

Why should I plan for our future?

Why should I do so much for you?

Why should I feel upset for you?

Why should I pamper you?

Why should I spend on you?

Why should I even LOVE you?

These 10 questions, no men can answer that, I swear. Unless they really care, and love you, I guess.

Cause sometime I really think that I am so stupid to do all these things for you.

Yet on my birthday till now, you have not do the promise you've made for me on your own.

And sometime, I just want to be alone, from everyone.

Don't feel like posting many pictures today. Moodless plus tomorrow gotta work morning.

I will make sure,

men will regret for not being faithful to their love ones.

HELLOOOOO!

OMFG. I didn't even have time to blog!

Yeap! Though First day of work was fun, of course! But I felt lost. There is alot of new products and inspiration I didn't know. Quite hard to serve. But now was okay! ANYWAY, there is a DIOR HOMME EXHIBITION IN ION NOW! Till 30 of October. Feel free can drop by! :D It's about the making of DIOR HOMME tuxedo.

Phew! Busy till no time to take pictures at all!

But it was fun after all~

Pay haven't come pay haven't come! This month is the most boring month! no shopping!

Gosh! How am i gonna tahan?! really need to save up, for christmas. hah, CAN'T WAIT FOR IT MAN! Should i rent a car anot? cost about 200 bucks leh. Anyone got any lobang can tell me ok?

& now I'm gonna research some resources for my christmas programme. planning is so troublesome! argh! :D pictures I will upload tomorrow okay? That time prawning session not uploaded yet.

*apple bought treats from taiwan for toopi!! :D thanks love!

Baby and I were busy these days, but we treasure the times together. Yesterday at Zouk was fun! :D EVERYONE WAS SQUEEZE LIKE HAMBURGER! But we enjoyed every moment of it.

& baby, I want parma ham! :D

Samantha signing off.

Yesterday was my last day!! :)

Was kinda sad cause I know I will miss them D:

Thanks to haibin, mee eng and paul for THREE YAMI YOGURT!

& today, I went to eat 'PU TIEN' with ah yi and shermannnn @ jurong point!

had a wonderful dinner and a beautiful dress from ah yi! :D

walk and shop around JP. was kinda tired but it's worth it with aunt and cousin.

I ate one whole plate my mussels myself can! :D cause both of them don't like mussels. HAHA

Imma happy girl today!

Actually I have a lot to do but 24 hours seems not enough to me.

Especially planning stuff. If you are too busy to plan, I will plan myself. As long as I got the drive, no one can stop or drag me. I don't want to regret. I want to be successful!!

Got to finish planning by Dec. I MUST!

PLUS PLUS PLUS! I PASSED MY TP ON MY DADDY'S BIRTHDAY! :D 10/10/11

Then we went to eat at 'Eng Seng Restaurant'. The food is nice but the people there like rushing for reincarnation. I ate 3 GONG, 1 and a half body! yummyyyy. Will drive there to eat again! & also visit my grandmama. :D

I AM BACK FROM MY 3HOUR HAIRDO!

Omg. But the result was so better than previous one.

*though the cost also YAYYYY. D:

I got this @ $10! It's from Animal Lovers League! This already consider cheap in order get all this sweet lil ones' picture in a calendar for you to see them in one whole year, not only you are plus doing a good deed, but your $10 can save an animal's life! There is NANA(noah arks) organization's calendar too. You can find Animal Lovers League's calendar at Pets' Station for sure! *For Noah Arks, ONLY CAUSEWAY AND JURONG POINT PETS' STATION has it. For PLC I'm not sure whether they got this programme or not.

SEE MY LEGGGGGG?! YET I HAVE TO WORK! D:

Went to 'tui na' 2 session = 32.10 x 2. ):

Hairdo? =88.80

DD: money flow like a river. how how how?!

Oh ya! This coming Saturday, I got a farewell party with CPPS team people and a celebration of Apple's Birthday. & Sunday 1pm, there is a volunteer instructions given by Animal Lover League. Planning to go there! :D wlau, my schedule was f****** packed! D:

No time for myself at all! On the 13th, I will start work at Dior.

Can't wait to join them back! :DDD

Tomorrow working MORNING! gotta go and bath and slp soon! bye byeee!

Hi peeps!

one more week to go back to Dior!

one more day to payday!

yay!

Well, everything went back smoothly I guess? :)

heh heh heh.

Today, Baby sacrificed for me! AwwWwWw~

That was very sweet of him.

Thank you baby. :)

Here comes the story :

Two days ago, I went to meet nic, sam and baby after work @ bottle tree.

Well, baby and sam went out to bus stop to fetch me. Everything was fine.

Until we went in, i saw a guy sitting on the stairs*old wood kind* from.. around 8m from my distance where we were supposed to walk there. It's was very dark there at night. i didn't care much and keep walking and chatting with them.

At the very moment i was walking down the stairs halfway, I thought of the guy just now.

I asked baby and sam whether they saw anyone sit there just now or walk away from the stairs where i was standing, they replied no, then i sprained my ankle. D:

fucking pain! it's was swollen until now. Though not very serious but I need to be careful next time. I was born with a very strong sixth sense. ): Kinda creepy. should drive in next time, safer.

LUCKILY, baby was there to save me, he PIGGYBACK meeeee! :D

i was so touched can! Thank you baby once again! :DDDDDD

Never felt so safe before. :x

Hahahaha.

Haiyaaa! I'm gonna miss the Dior's induction session. ):

Hope they will rearrange another session soon soon soon!

Never been to Dior's training before, kinda looking forward & excited.

Wish time can pass quickly this week! D:

Okay, pictures shall do the talk.

Pictures @ AVALON.

MOMMY AND DIDI!

HAPPY 2ND BIRTHDAY TOOPI!

& a happy 9th month, baby.

TOOPI just say Hi to you! He is so cute right? :) COW costume!

Suits his brand new bed! haha. no cakie, :( No time to buy. But i do my best to make him happy. In fact, he seems HAPPY! He wasn't naughty today! *Though he keep on bullying smurfy.

Baby was here to celebrate with him too. :)

My wish for toopi's birthday:

Toopi, I'm is always here to love you.

You are 2 years old now.

No matter how naughty you are, you are still mommy's precious.

I will do my best as a mommy duty to feed you, protect you & love you forever.

Wokay, yesterday went to Avalon with baby joe*daddy*, nicholas*mommy* and xiao sam*brother. the atmosphere was good till, HE gave me the shit.

My mood was super super down till the tip of my heels. Yet you wasn't there to cheer me up. It's not that I angry and upset for a stupid small matter, it's because the promise you made, we once made.

I see people, couples in the club, grinding, dancing, kissing and smiling happily like how we used to be. But now? Why am i feeling so envy whenever I see couple doing that while I'm like, 'dancing with a friend'?

We used to walk me back home, sit at the void deck chatting, but now? Why am I feeling I am going home alone everyday and no one I can speak to?

We used to write letters, take pictures. Why don't I receive any letters or upload any of our pictures?

You used to cook breakfast for us, Why am I keep eating cereals?

Is that really your 'end of your effort' already?

There's tons and tons of questions in my mind that was not answered, confused and unsolved.

I cried like a river but no one knows.

Yes, only toopi knows. But he didn't care. -.-

I'm really trying my best to slow down, for our future, and for not letting our memories pass by so fast. But I see no grateful.

Oh well. I gave him a letter today, he said my letter woke him up.

So in the first place, I was falling in love with a Zombie? :/

What am I supposed to do or say?

I JUST MISS THE OLD YOU.

All I want you is to reflect on yourself. What have you done? & What should you do?

I understand you are busy with your work and stuff but, you can't just throw me aside.

If I really care, I will come down and find you for that 5mins outside your house to see you.

If I really care, I would cook breakfast during weekend and pass to you in the morning for work.

If I really care, I would make plans for out free time to go out, just the two of us.

If I really care, I wouldn't do stuff to make you upset cause I know you need me.

IF. Too bad this problem doesn't lie on me. If not I can be the perfect man.

Hah. Alright, shall not write anything more stuff. It's late.

At least today, he cheered me up a little. *thank you baby* :)

Hopefully next post would be a happy one. :) Goodnight darlings.

I may not be a good girlfriend,

but I am willling to be one.

Thank you for loving me,

as I once felt loved by you.

Lastly, I WANT MORE MOONS, BABY. MORE MOONS!

Forever Love.

A song that always in my mind.

Today was my off day, nothing special.

Bathed toopi and 4 little creatures.

Went to find my mommy and nieces.

Was fun playing with them, though they only care about my ipod!

Shall bring them out one day when pay comes! :D

Had SUBWAYYYY for dinner!

Alright, everyone should be wondering what my previous post of think too much means,

it's about marriage, kids, and stuffs. I feel that I am ready but my partner was not. Alot of thoughts came up and we quite upset about that matter actually. i shall not think so much cause i know it wont happen so soon anyway.

Let's not talk about this anymore. TOOPI's birthday is coming!

What should i get for him? I have already bought a luxury bed for him!

Anyone wanna get him a present, I DON'T MIND! JUST PM ME! :D

I should get him a cake i guess. I did not celebrate for him last year. ):

Will celebrate in advance, 23rd! so, stay tune for pic pic pics!

Gonna research what's up in the World, fashion and stuffs and go to bed.

Bye peopleee! <3